A BIT DISCOURAGED.

To be honest {and my goal is to be myself on my blog, so here goes} last night I was feeling a bit discouraged about blogging. I logged on to write a post for this morning, and planned out my posts for the week in my notebook, but then I got side-tracked reading one of my favorite blogs. Sometimes {and by sometimes I mean only once before last night} I like to read a blog from the beginning to see how it began... to see how the writer evolved and got where they are. I like to think it will impart me with wisdom on how to get there myself... how to get more readers and so on. The first time I did this {read a blog from the first post} I felt kind of encouraged; this particular blogger had not always been so darn good,  or had so many readers, and it made her seem more real and imperfect... and this whole blogging thing slightly more attainable for me; however, last night's journey from the start had just the opposite effect. The blogger from last night was one of those quick successes; those girls you want to hate, but actually really like. She had only written about 15 - 20 posts and had readers commenting... You know those bloggers to whom it just seems to come so easy, and they are just so good? This was that blog and that girl. Yes, last night I was feeling somewhat discouraged.

When I started this blog I wanted it to be a style blog. Not a fashion blog, but a personal style blog. I see personal style as something different than fashion. I don't claim to be the man repeller or the Glamoroui {nope, not at all}. I learned this year that I don't care as much about designer level fashion {which was a shock to me}... I don't watch the runway shows or care if something has a name attached to it. That's not to say I wouldn't die for a closet of Isabel Marant, but just that I personally enjoy reading blogs where I might actually be able to afford the clothes... like the blog - Kendi Everyday. I wanted my blog to be about an average girl {me} and attainable style; however, I realized early on that I don't enjoy daily outfit pictures of moi, because I am too critical of myself.

So... last night I was feeling discouraged. But this morning I woke up in a really good mood... with my husband beside me and my adorable cat {who thinks he is a dog} tripping me as he walked around my legs, crying for his breakfast. As my Mr. reminded me last night, if I'm not one of those bloggers who has instant readers {besides my lovely family + friends} it's ok. *I need to write my own blog and not compare it to others. I did not start this for other people, I did it for myself. I began this blog because I needed something... I needed a creative outlet and something to focus on besides work {and my tv. I watch too much}. People reading it is just a giant bonus.

If you are still reading this novel, thank you. And thank you for following my little blog as I figure out what I want it to be about, really. Make a comment sometime in the future and let me know you are out there {so far my only comments are from my Mom... Thanks, Mom!}.

 {*good advice from my Mr. /  Image via pinterest}